Figuring Things Out

I think that one of the major lessons I have to learn during this life is that I will never have things figured out. Every time I think I have something figured out, it changes.

I thought my husband and I would have settled down in south Louisiana. I thought I would not work as a teacher in the Public Education system. I thought I would not be a military wife. I thought I wouldn't have children. I thought I'd never have an orgasm again when I was pregnant. That last one was definitely hormonal, and an indication that my list is getting too long, but you get the point.

I've been centering my meditations on accepting change with grace because I have lived long enough to know that I don't need to have things figured out. I haven't live long enough to accept that knowledge with grace, though. Between these two states of being, I am practicing transforming techniques such as my St. Andrew's Christmas Novena, hot yoga, calming and guiding meditations that lead me to the Akashic Records, and healthy(ish) eating.