Going with the Flow

As a hobby, I haven't been successful at being a horse woman. I think the mommin'-and-military-spouse life just doesn't allow for such a time-consuming hobby. Lately, I've switched from trying to develop myself as a rider to developing myself as a pilot.

I've been practicing living with more grace, and grace makes it so people can move more easily through their lives. I've finally taken the hint that horses are not where I am supposed to be focusing my efforts. The Universe seems happy for me to pursue piloting, though.

Since I have been practicing grace, I am making the conscious effort to do what feels like going with the flow. However, it can be tricky to know if I'm going with the flow or if I'm giving up. What's the difference between the struggle towards success and ending a losing battle?

Both of those sensations come with quite a bit of anxious feelings, so I don't think anxiety is a good indicator. I wonder if time is the only way to tell. I kept trying to develop myself as a horse woman from the time I was 11 until I was 30. So, maybe you have to do something for 19 years before you realize life is flowing the opposite direction of that which you have been going.